I have never experienced this before and I hope that I never will have to again. The idea of one of your children being in so much pain and not being able to do anything about it is unbearable. The thought of loosing a child is unthinkable. Im not sure how I feel right now.
Yesterday my daughter Nya was admitted to ICU at Lurie’s Children’s hospital and has not been responsive for the past 24 hours. She has had these episodes before as a result of the cancer, however this time its different. We are worried and helpless.
I really dont know what to say or what to do. As a family we are asking that you take a moment and share some positive/healing energy with Nya. We are hoping for the best.
We are currently running a fundraiser for Nya via the give forward website.
Click HERE to donate anything you can. Please Share with as many people as you can.
We are truly blessed to be surrounded by individuals who have giving spirits and we are so grateful.
In November of 2012 I decided that I would not set a resolution for 2013. My goal was to be deliberate and purposeful as to what I wanted to attract into my life during 2013. I listed my Top 10 Intentions for 2013.
About a week ago a good friend of mine Lashawn Williams the Arts and Culture Editor of Gapers Block reached out to me with an idea. She suggested that I do a recap of my year in order to be clear about the accomplishments that I have made.
I thought that was a great idea, and because I did The Top 10 Intentions for 2013 it has afforded me the ability to look back and see how my intentions have panned out over the past 12 months.
Now…let’s take a look at my year…..
2013 Precise Year in Review
1. Have a stronger connection to the creator and keep my vibration high.
This is an ongoing journey and after this amazing year I know for a fact that this connection has grown and is continuing to get stronger in each moment. I know the creator is real and I understand that we have been given the tools to achieve greatness. My eyes are open wide and I am more in tune with who I am and the ability and gifts that I have been blessed with. I am grateful to the creator for this.
2. Develop stronger more meaningful relationships with my family and friends.
I have been blessed to have a circle of family and friends that are very supportive. This year has allowed me to be more attentive and has given me insight as to who has my back. I have met so many new people and strengthened relationships that I thought were over. The treasure is with our friends and family and I honor them.
3. Be the creator I am supposed to be.
This year I have embraced the fact that I am a creator. I have been more deliberate as to how this message of positivity and power is and will continue to be delivered to the world. I wrote some great video treatments and some amazing songs. The more creative and bold that I am the more I attract other creative people. Let’s continue to build. Greatness is on the horizon.
4. Finish 5 projects sell 100k independently
I didn’t finish 5 projects; However I did finally finish “Ladies Love Mixtapes”, filmed the video for the lead single “Take Our Time”. The listening session for ‘The Anti Skinny Jeans LP” at The silver Room was successful and “A Hate You Can Trust” by The Guild a project I am prominently featured on was released.
5. Go on World Tour and perform for sold out stadiums.
The world tour and sold out stadiums didn’t happen YET, but I did A LOT of shows, the most notable was The Main Stage at The Silver Room Block Party. I also made a couple of trips to Indiana. One trip was to perform at Hype Magazines 11 year celebration, then I went to Indianapolis to perform at Pure Passion West and I was interviewed by Taj Longino of TWTTV.com
6. Be more fearless.
Eliminating fear from our lives is what allows us to move without doubt. The moment we tear down this wall the blessing come. Im knocking down a brick in each moment. I am more open and more willing to be vulnerable.
7. Increase the flow of prosperity to me in the form of money and health.
I lost 30lbs this year!!!! WOOOHOOO!!!! I got a new car!!! As a result of the shows that I have done the prosperity continues to flow.
8. Be the voice of Hip Hop Conscious Artists
I was featured in Yahoo Voices as Chicago’s most motivational Hip-Hop Artist. Thank you Jolie du Pre.
When it comes to this blog my intention is to share my experience and provide something uplifting and positive for the mass. The past month has been a whirlwind when it comes to what is happening in the news. The way that the news is reported via television and the internet is extremely immediate. Everyone has an opinion as to what is right or wrong. So much of what is reported in sensational and tends to spark discussions that are impassioned and driven by emotion. Generally I strive to stay away from these type of discussions. I am in the process of retraining my mind body and soul. In order to maintain a sense of peace and balance I work to feed myself things that add to the awesomeness that the creator has blessed us with.
Fruitvale Station is an amazing movie starring Michael B Jordan in the role of Oscar Grant. Oscar Grant was shot on the mass transit platform by an Oakland Police officer while being detained New Years Day 2009. The murder of Oscar Grant prompted riots and demonstrations that ultimately led to the resignation of the police chief and a 2 year prison term for the officer who killed Oscar. The Officer only served 11 months.
After watching the movie I was moved to tears. I knew what happened already however as with many of these type of stories when they are told in 140 characters or less or on the nightly news something is always missing. The spirit and soul of the person who lost his/her life is hardly ever focused on. These young men are loosing their lives. They have families and loved ones. They are human. Michael B Jordan’s portrayal of Oscar Grant reminds the world of this.
Oscar Grant and his daughter Tatiana
The release of this movie was timely. In light of George Zimmerman who killed Trayvon Martin but was found innocent because of the Stand Your Ground law in the state of Florida.
I didn’t watch the proceedings up until the last few minutes when the words innocent rang through the courtroom. I was shocked. During the trial I would check my Facebook feed and notice how attention was being focused on Trayvon’s friend, on how Trayvon looked his drug usage and other issues that have nothing to do with why he was murdered. His life was taken and it feels as though no justice was given. He was a young man with his life in front of him. He had family and friends who love him. He was human.
Trayvon Martin and his father Tracy Martin
The media is all around us and is embedded in every facet of our lives. It is not some benign force that does not affect change. Used properly it can change lives and change the world. In this shift that is happening in our universe in this moment there seems to be a determined focus on those things that do not promote our good.
More specifically black men are being portrayed as heartless, uneducated and hopeless individuals.
Whenever I tell people I am from Chicago these days I get “The Questions”. They ask me… “Whats going on in Chicago?” “Are you scared for your life?” “Are you going to move?”
Most of these people only know what they are being fed in the media. Chicago is NOT the war zone that people will have you believe. The youth have not lost their minds. They are warriors for change with limited direction. There is a lack of focus as to what is causing this violence. The focus is on the killing and not the change. In the midst of all of this The “Concealed Carry” Law was just implemented in Illinois.
In the midst of this killing among our youth one of the most powerful tools of the media is being used to promote the lifestyle that is adding the dehumanization of black men throughout the world. Poverty is being exploited and our youth who are looking for a way out are providing the mass with what the media wants.
Music specifically Rap Music and the culture of Hip Hop has been hijacked and is being used as a tool drive our young men into free labor. Its not a secret. Its hidden in plain sight.
A portrait is being painted of our youth that is not true. They are not savages. They have SOULS!
Keith (Chief Keef) Cozart and his daughter Kayden
This is for the world to know. We are living breathing human beings with souls. Our lives have value.
Refocus our energy on this connection to our soul. We are great and can change this world. Life is AWESOME!!! LETS LIVE!!! Are you with me?
On any average day in the midst of living, my attention is pulled in multiple directions.
There is a meme that’s floating around the interwebs that reads in effect, that as long as you don’t take the steps to realize your dream you will be working for someone else helping them achieve theirs.
Many times I find myself thinking about the current happenings of the day. I make a conscious effort to avoid them; however having this phone in my hand can be the gateway to loss of focus and being deliberate. It can stop me from progressing.
It can also be a tool to help me focus. It’s my choice.
Everyday we are drawn away from the most important source that should be receiving our attention.
This moment is an opportunity for all of us to gain a clear perspective and move forward into our good. As we embrace our greatness we begin to filter out what may be hampering our growth. When we are present we become more aware of forces that may cause us to stray from our path. Do not be swayed.
We have a duty to ourselves and the universe to maximize our time and live our purpose. It is within our purpose that we add on to the good of our lives and the lives of other. Eliminate toxins of negativity doubt and hate. Surround yourself with people who know their true power.
We will continue to prosper and grow because this is what we are ment to do. Believe in who you are and Thank God for who you are.
Stay Focused – Positive and Productive
How do you feel? Whats on your mind? Leave a comment, like, share. :-)
I found myself having to do that a few times today. I know what it means to be centered and I know that we ultimately have control over how we feel, but its so easy to get swept up by emotion.
I have been guilty of this a lot lately. Sometimes I find myself trying to pawn off the way I’m feeling on what someone else has said or done to me. That’s the biggest cop out.
What’s important to remember is that we have dominion over all things, including our feelings. We don’t have to feel bad if we don’t want to. We have to remain in a state of appreciation and be grateful for life.
It definitely takes practice. Yes I’m talkin bout practice…HA! Practice makes perfect.
So right now I’m feeling Amazingly Awesome Truly Grateful. I appreciate my life and all the goodness that comes to me NOW!!!
Tuesday was such a strange day. I wake up and check my facebook and all I see are pictures of this beautiful infant who is six months old.
Jonylah Watkins 6 months Old
This child is yet another victim of this rising murder rate in Chicago. I make a concerted effort to avoid this news because of how it makes me feel. I feel like we are being attacked by negativity everyday and not watching the news is not enough anymore. We have to shield ourselves from a constant barrage of bad news. Fast Forward >>>>>>>>>>
So…. Im at work Tuesday and its just like any other day. Im helping customers and kind of going through the motions, just another day. Of course my co-workers are discussing this horrible tragedy that I have been trying to avoid and I try my best not to comment on it. I never do.
The day continues…faxing…answering the phones…being corporate….work. Occasionally I may hear someone speaking on their cell, sometimes they talk LOUD!! Today this “young lady” was in the vestibule talking REALLY LOUD and saying every curse word you could think of to whomever she was having a conversation with.
Security approaches her and asks her to step outside if she is going to speak so loudly…She calls him a name and then says F U as she goes outside. Then she comes back in as if she is about to be serviced. She was escorted out.
I’ve had conversations with many people concerning this energy that people seem to be emanating. For some reason it seems as though negativity is fighting for its life and people seem to gravitate towards it so easily. Why is it like this?
The reason I blog is to speak my mind and represent a voice that is working to turn the tides and tip the scales when it comes to how powerful we truly are. It is up to us to make a choice and not buy into this low energy.
Speak words of power, be kind to people, embrace the spirit of love.
When you pay to much attention to media in general you will be bombarded with BS. Its time to be selective and deliberate. Speak Life Into This World and see the world Change. We are blessed. Thats right.
What are your thoughts on this current state we are working ourselves out of? How do you stay encouraged? I would love to hear your thoughts. :-)
Precise 
